Scenes from the concert have lingered on my mind for the past few days, and so I finally decided to put this fragment of my memory into words. It was along six hours, but time stopped for me from the moment Yunho appeared before me. I'd like to share those feelings with you as a momentum of the event.
This time around, there were only seats at the venue, and my stomach flu really took the life out of me. It had been 10 months since I'd seen him live and my heart was filled with nostalgia. This was also the first time he had performing on stage since the lawsuit, and whether it be Yunho himself or others taking part in the concert, I was completely taken over by anticipation. Perhaps it's because of this that I was so disappointed when reality didn't live up to my expectations. I don't want to make any harsh comments, this is just me recounting what happened that night and how I felt as a Yunho biased fan.
We got there really late and performances had already begun by the time we entered the stadium and found section D2. The entire stadium was packed and fortunately, our seats were still empty. Everyone seemed to be pretty well behaved. Up above, we saw numerous banners, many of them of Yunho fan bases. WISH, DC, ONLY etc. We saw a massive section of red and a beautiful wall of red balloons strung together. We waited and waited. There were technical difficulties with the big screen on several instances, leaving the performances halted. Whist we waited, we heard Cassiopeia singing 'Balloons' and for a moment, I was overcome with emotion. They used white cardboards to form a heart, and this was especially beautiful under the glow of red. Unfortunately, HoMin never got to see this, by the time they came on stage, it had already gone dark.
As the sun set, the first part of the performances came to an end and still there was no sign of the two of them. Most people had gotten quite impatient and were screaming Dong Ban Shin Ki at the top of their voices. My spirits dropped lower and lower as time passed, each time the stage dimmed, I'd sit up straight, straining my eyes and getting my DV at the ready whilst keeping it concealed. After I'd seen two people kicked out for filming and taking photos, I was only able to do it under cover. Still, my nerves had me clutching onto my camera in a death grip. Since there were seats throughout the stadium, the audience was prohibited from standing at all times.
During the break, there was talk to Changmin would be up next, but I didn't understand the Korean so I thought that they'd make an entrance at the beginning of the second part. I think most people thought the same.
The second part was SMP, where one group performed after another. Dong Bang Shin Ki used to play a primary role in these segments, so we all got really excited when the lights dimmed. I almost felt that Yunho would appear right before my eyes. In the end, we were hit with disappointment over and over again. I felt like I was going to break down and there was an ache in my heart completely foreign to me, something I can't quite put into words. Watching Cassiopeia switch their red lights on and off, screaming Dong bang Shin Ki, I knew all of us shared the same thoughts and emotions. Even though we were from different countries, our hearts were together.
Suddenly, the SMTown advertisement started playing on the big screen, and as soon as Yunho's part came on, the entire stadium erupted with screams. It was as though the reminiscence and pain was exploding out of everybody though their screams. The Japanese fans beside me burst into tears as soon as they saw Yunho's face on the screen, and despite trying my hardest to remain composed, I began to cry along with them whilst comforting them at the same time. We were finally going to see Yunho. The stage lights dimmed and a group of dancers spread themselves out on stage, each with a towel in their hand. I didn't really understand what was happening at first, but then I was suddenly hit with the realization that it was them. Music blared from the speakers and two rays of light appeared. The big screen showed silhouettes of Changmin and Yunho being suspended up above on wires. I suddenly thought back to the wires I'd seen over my head at the beginning of the concert. Lifting my head, I saw them descending from a point opposite the main stage. They were the only ones that could demand such an entrance. He was only holding on with one hand initially, but by the time I'd reached for my DV, he had both tightly clasped around the bar. I knew he was afraid of heights so it was actually kind of comical and cute at the same time. At one point, he turned his head to look at the red that dominated the stands and smiled in contentment. He was probably relieved to know that so many people were here to support them.
The first song was a medley of some of DBSK's old songs. It was kind of odd and there were problems with the rhythm. Both HoMin didn't seem to look too good, this was a really important performance for both of them. Eventually, they took over the stage, and as usual, it was charisma overload. Their voices threw the audience into a state of frenzy. Even those who'd remained seated at all other times leaped up and the staff around made no move to stop them, probably because there were so many people standing by then. Or perhaps they just hadn't intended on doing it. After performing together, each member delivered a solo. Both of these were new songs and they were really good. It really cannot be denied that they were born to be on stage. When they spoke to the audience, they used the same DBSK introduction. I felt a little bitter, but hearing the determination in Yunho's voice gave me strength. Seeing him in front of me was more important than anything else in the world, maybe it was because he knew how long we'd all been waiting, so he greeted us and asked how we all were. It was a whole load of Korean, pretty much just exchanging greetings with the audience like you would with a friend. He also said something about how he'd work harder in the future. Listening to his voice gave me a peace of mind. I think a lot of other people felt the same way, we'd all been waiting patiently for this moment. Regardless of the disappointments we'd had to endure, it was enough to know that our presence gave them power and motivation. Even if it was only going to last for a split second, we would've waited and supported them all the same.
Yunho put his everything into the powerful dances, just like the way he used to. We could see the thought and effort he'd put into the performance and that was enough. He was still the same, nothing had changed. He still had the same control over the stage and the same confidence in himself. Is this not the Yunho we've always loved?
Seeing Yunho like this really made the exhaustion and the hours of waiting completely worthwhile.
It was over before any of us could say we'd seen and heard enough. For those who'd been anticipating this moment all along, it was completely unacceptable. But
after I'd calmed down, I realized that this was more than enough. Seeing him shine on stage and progressing the way he was, that was enough no matter how shortlived the moment was.
When he appeared again, it was for the SMTown group performance. He wore the same SMTown clothes as everyone else, and it was as though we'd gone back in time to 913. He had a smile constantly on his face, and just as I'd said before, this was still the Yunho we all knew and loved. My lenses were focused on him the whole time. Maybe that's what liking someone does to you, no matter where they are, you'll be able to spot them in an instant. At the end, all the artists were running around on stage and Yunho had his arm around one person at one moment and a different one the next. More often than not tough, he and Changmin had their arms around one another. They were brothers and it really was a heartwarming picture.
Yunho shouted 'Dong Bang Shin Ki' really loudly towards the end, grabbing a red balloon and turning to face Cassiopeia. All of this had me in a state of shock. He knew there were people supporting him and he was grateful for it. And that is why, if you'd given me six more hours, I'd still have waited and I would've given him the loudest scream of support.
When everything was finally over, I found that I really wasn't too disappointed. Regardless of how long it had lasted, I had seen him on stage with my own two eyes and I had felt the happiness and pride of being a part of Cassiopeia.
Credits: TVXQBaidu + uknowbar
Trans by: dorfehh@DBSKnights
Shared by: DBSKnights
Cassiopeia.. Keep the faith always ..<3
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